Post by brythwen on Jul 29, 2018 15:25:00 GMT
Hello friends,
I am struggling to find balance again. Up until recently, I had been struggling due to my illnesses. And then at the beginning of the month my neighbor ended his own life. It was traumatic for me on multiple levels. I have not been avoiding you all but I have been struggling very hard with feelings of deep sorrow and hopelessness. I recognize that this is depression and I am quite tired of being depressed. It is something I've been fighting with since last November. With Dea's grace, I have a strong support network in my family and friends. The hard part is reaching out to them. It is so very difficult to see that this young man with so much promise felt such profound agony that he genuinely believed the only way out of it was through ending his own life. It is perhaps equally difficult to realize that I have struggled with such anguish myself on a regular basis and it is only through Dea's blessing and that of the holy ones I have endured it long enough to get to the other side of it.
Social phobia also keeps me quiet. When I am depressed, my social phobia is even worse. Thus, I struggle to even write letters or emails to distant friends on a monthly basis. It leaves me grief-sick. And feeling quite guilty. Still, I keep trying because I have hope of better days ahead of me. Please, if you are so inclined, pray for Mike and his family. And that includes the poor pup that was left behind too. I'm sure that even now, Tank (his pitbull) is wondering when Mike is going to show up and misses him terribly.
May Dea bless you all.
Brythwen
[Note: Mods, I'm not sure if this is the correct place to post this or not. Please relocate the thread to the correct spot on the forum if I have posted in the wrong subforum. Thank you in advance.]
I am struggling to find balance again. Up until recently, I had been struggling due to my illnesses. And then at the beginning of the month my neighbor ended his own life. It was traumatic for me on multiple levels. I have not been avoiding you all but I have been struggling very hard with feelings of deep sorrow and hopelessness. I recognize that this is depression and I am quite tired of being depressed. It is something I've been fighting with since last November. With Dea's grace, I have a strong support network in my family and friends. The hard part is reaching out to them. It is so very difficult to see that this young man with so much promise felt such profound agony that he genuinely believed the only way out of it was through ending his own life. It is perhaps equally difficult to realize that I have struggled with such anguish myself on a regular basis and it is only through Dea's blessing and that of the holy ones I have endured it long enough to get to the other side of it.
Social phobia also keeps me quiet. When I am depressed, my social phobia is even worse. Thus, I struggle to even write letters or emails to distant friends on a monthly basis. It leaves me grief-sick. And feeling quite guilty. Still, I keep trying because I have hope of better days ahead of me. Please, if you are so inclined, pray for Mike and his family. And that includes the poor pup that was left behind too. I'm sure that even now, Tank (his pitbull) is wondering when Mike is going to show up and misses him terribly.
May Dea bless you all.
Brythwen
[Note: Mods, I'm not sure if this is the correct place to post this or not. Please relocate the thread to the correct spot on the forum if I have posted in the wrong subforum. Thank you in advance.]
